Wednesday, March 26, 2008

What is a wound?

Do you have a wound?
Before I entered the Saturday Therapy class, I thought I didn't.
Does wound has to assoicate with sadness, disappointment and pain?
Sometimes yes, sometimes no.

Times with it about pain ***
Last January, I came to visit a friend of mine who had just born a baby girl. It was a sunny day. The sky was blue. It was such a remarkable Sunday. On our way to the hosptial, Man and I were talking about a trip to somewhere. We were both happy and full of hope. As we approaching closer to the hospital, i suddenly didn't want to go. Because, i know I will be asked.
As I looked at the bady, I started to imagine, if he or she were here, perhaps it would be the same age, having a bright eyes likes mine and a funny smile likes Man. A familiar voice disturbed and said, " You are not looking very well, you shall better go to see that doctor and taking more rest." It was what I had been expected. However, sometimes we had been expected things will happened, can we show an expected facial expressions as response for the fact that it's really hurts?

Times with it about growth up***
I knew Man was very frustrated when the miscarriage happened. For he is the one who eager to had a baby, and I am still not
in the mood to becoming a mother. I am not sure can I be a good mother, but I want to learn now. The miscarriage experience shines like a star which inspires me many thoughts about relationships.

I suddenly realizes I had such a strong connections with my mother which I had never experienced, although she had beed gone for eight years. I had the same feelings, worries, and missions as she did. For me, she always reminds me of a fighter. I want to be become her. I am sure that most of the mothers will fight for the best for their love one. As I were watching the film " In Love We Trust" with my best friend, Sandy, who is a dreamy girl with a supportive boyfriend and family, I thought, if I were the mother I will do the same as she did, because it is my baby. Of course, if I were Sandy, who is still single and searching for her life, I will doubted the fact that is it the best way to solve the problem.
Because mother and daughter are just different.

Last night, Man and I were chatting about baby. Just a year, both of us had change. I am happy because I know we had becoming more mature. I know he loves baby, but he said to me yesterday, " if I would had to choose, I would rather no having a baby, because you are the most important person for me."

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